well...welll....

Well well....
Looks like ONLY mr. Lai Mun Onn posts comments on my blog...hahahah...thanks mun onn...I really appreciate it!!! altho not much said, but it means a lot....means u visit my blog...and u read it...and u actually bother commenting....NOT LIKE SOME PPL WHO READ AND DEN JUST LEAVE WITHOUT A COMMENT....hahah...

anyway...i was looking at pics of our church's camp in genting...and darn!! i miss Life Chapel so much....when i was in life chapel, i complain and comment : why things like this instead of like that? Why they do things like this wan? haih...complain and complain...now that i'm gone, i miss it so much...of course i still complain when i get back...but i guess distance makes the heart grows fonder....

well, right now i'm actually thinking of changing church...the church that i go to doesnt seem to be growing la...of course i like it because the practises is vy similar to those of Life Chapel...but things just seem a little different..and altho the church is a much warmer church, but if it's not growing and if it doesnt help me grow and if it doesn't provide me a place of service to God...then i think it's a bit hard to stay rite? i can't just go to church on sunday for worship and breaking of bread service and then leave rite?

so...please pray for me kay...hehehe

but...yah...i miss life chapel....miss the ppl there...miss seeing ppl.....haih....but as the reality sinks in...and i know that i'll be in spore for a long long time, i guess i need to accept the fact....and den, when i do get married (if that ever happens) i'll be at my hubby's place...where-ever that would be....Malaysia?? Singapore?? India?? China?? Israel?? hahah...who knows man...i donno....

Den, when i start thinking bout BGR and getting married....i look at 1 corinthians 7 and see that celibacy is also a gift....just as marriage is a gift....and how Paul actually prefers being single...heheh...i wonder which one is a gift for me? hahah...but the thing to note is that, why does everyone thinks that if u're single then there's something really wrong with u? why?? Just because u choose not to get married, doesnt mean that somethings wrong with u...and seriously, some ppl can be a good friend but not a good husband/wife...so, why wanna torture the person u love....it's not that ppl who dont get married have no feelings whatsoever.....it's sad when i see even christians have this kind of thinking.....the same thing with wealth...doenst mean that if u're not rich, that God is not blessing u....pleas lar!!! God loves everyone of HIS child!! U think he'll ever stop blessing us?? It's how we look at it lar...HIS blessings.....

As i went out today, i was just thinking...haih...how i wish i could buy this and buy that for my mom, dad, bro and sis....but i can't...coz got no money...and sometimes, it is things like this that drives ppl to work harder to earn more money to be able to provide a comfortable life for our love ones....but den, are things like that important? if we look at things with the eternal life in mind, i guess ppl will start to realise that life isn't all about living it comfortably...of course we love our families and want to provide the best for them...but dont u think God loves them very much?? even much more than we do? Look at Jonah and u'll know what i mean....God created them and will have the best plans for each one of HIS child....and that includes our parents and family... i guess, that's why Jesus says hate ur parents....as in....love God more than our parents...by right, all things that we have....our parents and things that our parents provide for us, ultimately is from God...by the grace of GOD....so, why do we thank our parents more than we thank God? why do we want to be filial to our parents but forget who's the ultimate provider?!

hmmm......it's a corrupted that we live in today...but yet, we dont open our eyes and look deeper than what we see....we dont question anymore but accept things just as it is....we dont look deeper...but yet we expect to see....how can we when we dont even bother to look? hmmm.... and den we ask where is God? u see that happening in our recent tsunami and the september 11 thing....we see ppl asking "where is God?" and "why did God allow all these to happen?"....but we never even bother seeking God when things are good? why?? is God an escape when things bad happens? is God answerable to all the bad things that happen? WHO ARE WE TO EVEN ASK THAT?? are we bigger than GOD?