Love....

I really have no idea of what to write about this topic....I was just chatting with a friend, a close friend, a sister! And she's hurt - hurt by this man whom i consider man by age but not so by action. His irresponsibility has caused her to be hurt and aih...i donno what to say about him. But, as i was talking to her, she post this question to me : hey, i read your blog and i read that you were hurt too. Are you ok now? and i went : Yeah, i'm fine. It was an old story and not only that, its been so long edi...how can i not be ok rite? I know i'm off him already. He's a friend - a close one in fact. But, we're just friends...nothing more and nothing less!! Yeap...But the question that lingers is : Am i still hurt? hmm....the answer to that...*blank* i donno! i really donno. Ask whether or not i am open to a relationship now, and my answer is probably an ugly NO. Why ugly u ask me? The hurt is still there - the fear of being hurt again. Will i ever meet someone who will not hurt me? Probably NOT. Which explains why i am guarding my heart real tightly. I don't wanna be hurt the way i was. I know it sounds all weird and not jeelee like. But, i guess...you could probably see the hurt and the fear that is in me too rite? I am in no way blaming anyone!! But, i dowan to lie and i dowan to be putting on a fake smile. I do not want to talk about it. I do not want to think about it. I'm learning to let God take care of this hurt and this fear. I'm learning to let HIM handle my heart. I am not too sure how i will let go but i know trust and love involves letting go. Letting go and Letting God handle everything!! Yes Yes....

Probably nothing is more comforting and healing than to know that we have an eternal Father who loves us and wants the best for us in everything that we do. And yes, how can i think of love but not looking towards YOU? It's impossible. Love than the world can offer is not true love and its not something that will satisfy my inner desires!! Let the love of Jesus wash away all the frown that i have...wash away all the hurt...wash away all the tears...

To guys and girls out there, I know we all know that love isn't as simple as we think it is. There are people who wil just ruin your life for you - thank you man!!! But, please....it's not something to be played with - No, Not feeling!!! Something else, mebbe ur Barbie Doll or your G.I.Joe toy. But not feelings please. It hurts...probably not just one party...probably more!! Prob not just for a short while...prob for life!!