Friday, December 31, 2004

Bye 2004, Hello 2005....

As the year draws to an end, i'm suddenly drawn to see what the LORD has done in my life. And truly, there's just too much goodness that i've received that i can't really put into words the things that HE has done for me in my life. The major stuff would be my STPM results, my university acceptance, and throughout my stay in spore He has provided constantly and been with me to support me and just guide me in my life. So much so that i can't imagine life without HIM.
I've been a christian for bout 10 years. And yet, i realised that i've not been very close to HIM until a few years ago....and as i look back, many times i've drawn away from HIM and yet HE has been drawing me near to HIM but i've consciously ignored and neglected HIM. When my best friend died (her name's evelyn), i was so devastated. She was the best friend anyone could have. She's one person i know i can alwiz go to no matter how badly i've done in anything. I know she'll never judge me but instead will alwiz encourage me to go on stronger! And then, my grandma died in year 2002...Like evelyn, she was also my source of comfort and support. As much as my parents are my pillar of support and comfort, they had expectations of me and when i failed to meet those expectations i would go to my grandma. When she died, i knew that i have no where to go when i fail my parents or my family anymore. But beyond all these things, all these "bad" things, i now realise that all these things happens for a reason. And one of them was to draw me closer to the LORD and definitely to depend on HIM and see and acknowledge HIS greatness. Who can be compared to HIM? Who can comprehend HIS greatness? And all the time when i was in singapore, of course i was sad as i had to leave home and family and church and was sad because i don't know anyone whom i'm close with and i know i have no where to go when i'm sad. But, it was during that time that i learn to depend on HIM as my source of comfort and refuge. HE is my rod and my staff...He'll lead me and i truly understand what it is to say that the LORD has never left me nor forsaken me. Yet, at times of distress, i am able to let HIM take second position in my life. I myself put HIM aside. So, i do not have any right to ask HIM where HE is at times of distress....Because i know that HE is there. It is i who refuse HIM. I must learn that no matter what happens, HE needs to constantly be first in my life and my heart. and i'm glad that the LORD never lets me go although i've failed HIM again and again. But, instead, constantly leading me towards HIM and guiding my life. I truly have so much to thank HIM for!!

As we all party to celebrate the coming of a new year, lets not forget to remember the goodness that we've received. What i've shared are major stuff in my life. The minor minor stuff i didnt share because of lack of space. Furthermore, who wants to know the minor stuff of my life rite? hehehe.....but, really....when u sit back and reflect, u see God's hands in your life and you would see how ungrateful you have been and how much you need to thank God for and ask for HIS forgiveness.....

God has given me great and wonderful friends....these ppl are truly a blessing to me....thanks guys for all your love and wonderful support.....
and these ppl are..... Weng Yan, Yin Ngai, Shelby, Yueen San, Yuen Hsiang, Joshua, pin pin....and loads more.....
Ppl like Ah ma Peng Chui, Jessica, edwin yapp, keat poh....these ppl have been my support even when i was in singapore. Thanks guys...hahahahaha
too much to thank.....really too much to thank.....
well, even if i did not name all my friends...i am thankful to GOD for friends...each and everyone!! No matter how close u are to me...You have impacted my life at least once! So, let's thank God together for what HE has done!!

Happy New Year..... =)

Monday, December 27, 2004

i'm Alive...

Hie Hie...i know it's been tremendously long ever since i last blogged.....In case any one actually reads my blog, i just want to let u know that I'm ALive....and not dead yet. It's just that i havent really found the time to blog anything down. Sorry....will update soon....hahahah....

btw, Blessed Christmas and Happy 2005!!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

title??

hmmm.....i wonder why i alwiz need to come up with an interesting title? I'm not that THAT creative a person u know...oh wait! I'm not creative AT ALL!!! hahahah....

hmm...today, i woke up oni at 9am!!! oh goodness....slept until so late....den i was just being so lazy and i didnt get off my bed until bout 11am when my bro called home saying dat my dad's gonna come and pick me up to go to his office!! den, i quickly got up and bathed...hahahah... didn't even have time to clear my bed...goodness gracious!!!

anyway, i did nothing much today...except chatting online..hahah....but i went and think thru some stuff for the NAV christmas party...well, sent out an e-mail delegating stuff for ppl to do...i guess on one hand, i might most prob be the less busy one among the whole BS grp. But again, there's yf coming up and i just felt that i need to do loads of praying and loads of preparation for the camp...spiritually for myself in order to achieve as much for the LORD as possible in the camp! and i felt i dont think i can do a good job if i were to handle the whole NAV christmas party organisation by myself...so, i decided to spread out the work load...i think the other girls will not be as busy as the guys...except for LiRen who'll oni come back on the 9th of Dec? so, sorry girls....and thanks for helping out!!! really doing as much as i can....but i think we'll be able to achieve better results if workload is spread out properly!!

ermm....den, have to come up with camp evaluation form for yf camp...wah seh!! i nv do b4. Sounds trivial and easy...but i nv do b4...nvm nvm!!! i know ah ma peng chui will lemme know how to come up with the form and sure fooseng and alvin will lemme know what they want specifically for the form...den, i can come up with sumthing substantial!! hehehe.....

anyway, as i did my QT tis morning, i was reminded in 1 Thes 4:11 to alwiz aspire to lead a quiet life, to mind your (my) own business and to work with your(my) own hands...
so, at times like this when everything seems so hectic, it's so tempting to keep myself soo soo busy (and i like being busy) but it's important to know that i need to lead a quiet life in order that i may be still enuff to hear HIS voice!! and be sensitive to HIS calling!!! and i think we must all strive to do that....listening to HIM!!! remember that Satan's trying to keep us so busy that we leave God behind our schedules and give God whatever leftover time we have!!

Be attentive ppl!!! Be alert!!!!

hehehe.....okie okie....gotta go liao.....wanna do something else too...heheheh

Monday, December 06, 2004

I'm back!!!

Wooohoo.....

I came back on friday nite....so tired lar!!! wahlau...the amount of walking i did and it was so tiring!! But, of course it was all worth it when i saw the suprise on my parent's face esp! Hehe...all paid off!!

Anyway, been back for the past 2 days edi....and it's just great to be back home!!! the comfort of my own room and spending time chatting with my parents and with siblings!!! it's just fantastic. Of course with the ability to drive around, makes things so much even more fun!!

i gave Yueen San a suprise on saturday when she had her birthday party!! woohoo!!! she was so suprised and it was great suprising and old friend. And of course, being the ms. popular that i am...everyone at the party (whom i know) wanted to hug me...wah seh!!! hahahah....it was great suprising her!!! hehehe....

well, today in church there was meeting (YF STAFF) and den, i'm pleased to say that we have 31 non christians out of the 70 youths who are going for the yf camp!! so, it is gonna be a great camp!! and i better equip myself first!!! hehehee....

I'm so looking forward to the YF camp!!! it's sure gonna be fantastic lar!!! just fantastic!! hahaha....
okie okie....better be going liao.....i'm kinda a bit tired coz yesterday didnt sleep well....and tis morning woke up super duper early to do QT and den went to church for worship!!!

heheheh....okie okie....
me better get going liao....bye bye....sleeep....sleeep....sleeep.....

Thursday, December 02, 2004

JeeLee reporting to mr.blog

Hie Hie.....

Okie....now, for the report....

yesterday was my last paper and after the whole day, i wanted to blog but den was too tired edi...said want to take a nap, but ended up sleeping like a piggie..hahaha

Anyway, yesterday was a scary paper...coz it was difficult and not oni dat, i was caught shadding when they say pens down!! but, i was oni shading my matric no. la...so, irritating!! anyway, i was upset with myself more...for not doing it the right way and for not being a good testimony!! and therefore i felt so so so horrible la....den after the paper, i went and see the lecturers...they were kind enuff to let us go...not to punish us tis time...but like noel said, they probably wanted to scare us only!! whatever it is, i was kinda frightened and was a bit upset...so, i just prayed and ask God for forgiveness and ask that the Lord help me to strengthen my faith in HIM!!! and after the paper, i went to see Gloria and Jia Ying...and just wanted to ask them to pray for me...just commit the whole paper into HIS hands...and ask God for forgiveness plus calmness and peace and joy in HIM knowing that He's in control and i need not worry but should have faith in HIM!!! felt much better after dat...

den...we had meeting to plan for the christmas party!! was a bit down still during the meeting...dat's why didnt say much la... but, after we (me and jeremy and bernard) went to Julia's house to look at the place, we decided to have the party there....den went back to school and was cracking our heads (mine and jeremy's) as to what to plan for the christmas party and oso for the games for the nav camp!!! aduh......it's gonna be SOOO fun!!!! i'm so excited!!! wah seh!!! it's gonna be sooo sooo fun!!! really!!!! me and jeremy wished we both could be there...now we can oni depend on the photos shot....hahahha...but its gonna be so nice lar!!! hahahah

anyway...den we went to orchard....it was fun!!! taking photos and all dat....and den, i know i'm gonna miss the china fellas so much la....gonna miss chen xian, Jia Ying, Jia Lin, Jia Jing....gonna miss them all soooo much lar!!! haih!!!! but, will be alrite la.....

b4 we went to orchard, weng yan called me....haih, yan...i wish i could be there for u!!! wish i could just be there...give u a hug and tell u tat no matter what happens....even if it's ur worst day in ur life, u know u can count on me....u know i'll be there for u!!! but, the fact is tat i cannot alwiz be there for u!! but u know that the LORD is!!! therefore, depend on HIM for comfort and for encouragement and for love okie....i love u...u've been a fantastic friend and sis!!! and i wish i could be there alwiz too...but, i can't lor!!nvm nvm....no worries!!! i know the LOrd will keep u close to HIS heart!!!

and oni last week, i was sharing with in nav prayer meet that i've been a bit down coz lacking encouragement frm ppl...and i was just wondering whether do i make anyone proud...and i knew that if i want encouragement, i can depend on the LORD!!!...and guess what? i received a mail frm my parents....snail mail summore!!! and the card says they love me and they're proud of me....yay!!! hahaha....i was so happy....because my parents are not very outspoken summore!!! but it was fantastic lar.......how the LORD answers prayers and be so close to our hearts!!! i know i can count on HIM for everything!!!!

Truly HIS love and mercy endures forever!!!!

gtg now.....gonna watch incredibles!!! yay!!!!
God blesss.....