What a dae!!

Well, I gotta tell u tis...

Last nite i slept super duper late because i was clearing my room....i slept oni about 2:30 and tis morning i woke up bout 8am to go for QT. wah...super adventurous la...hahah

Anyway, today had a good time chit-chatting with Beverly...abang Jeremy didn't come and study with us la...so, we studied in the canteen and chit-chatted the whole day instead of studying...goodness gracious!! hahah....anyway, we had a good time of sharing and i'm gonna start studying soon for my LAST paper tmr...wah!! so excited...last paper edi...hahah
it seems like the holidays is nearer than the exams...hahah...but the actual opposite is the case! hahah...but we need these kinda crazy things to keep us motivated wert rite??

anyway, tmr after exam, we're gonna gather and meet for preparation for christmas party...wah, i super duper happy la!!! hahah!!!! super duper happy!!!! at last...can enjoy as much as i can!! woohoo!!! woohoo!!!! so happy...hahahah
after the planning for the christmas party, me and jeremy gonna meet up to discuss games for the nav camp...wah!! so excited!! they're gonna have so much fun lar!!! haiyoh!!!
too bad i can't be there..hahahah....

wah....so nice...after dat, me, bev and abang jeremy gonna go to orchard!!!yay! celebrate all we can!!! woohoo!! so happy edi!!! hahaha.....

okie okie...gotta study first!!! bye bye...ciao ciao....

Mee again....

I just came back from bible study.....and it's bout 11 plus edi....now....now....

hmmm.....i manage to do all the studying that i need to....so, it was quite good....
tmr another day!!!

I started my day asking myself who am i living for?? who am i listening to? who's directing my life?? issit God?? or issit my own desire?? what is it???

i want to live for God and God alone!!!! but i need help for the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak!!! so, God, pls help me!!

as for relationship...bernard tot me not to suppress the feeling...so, i'll not do so!! I'll admit that i do have feelings for HIM and there has been so many times that i wish he is near me....and i just hate it when he doesnt talk to me or even acknowledge my presence...but, i leave it to God...i don care whether or not we get together....i wanna leave it to the LOrd...if it's not him, sure got someone better...hahah!!! so....see where God says lor...hahah!!! yay!!!!

i'm okie with anything!!! hahaha.....

scarry

I am now sitting right in front of my comp and thinking.....
It's been so super fast and now it's already the end of the sem!! Some has already finished exam...dat means dat's it!! end of the sem!! but for me, i have my next paper on wednesday!! and i have loads to study!! anyway, besides tat.....

I was just thinking how time flies man....i mean...

In the beginning of the semester, i was wondering how am i gonna go thru my first semester in NUS la?? it's so boring...no one talks to me coz they think i'm fierce....i have friends but it doesnt satisfy me coz i want close friends...not those dat says hie and bye!! i dont need friends like dat....
den...i know i have to get to a church!!....went to frankel...ang mo kio....well, somehow it felt weird...den went to serangoon bethesda!! wah seh!! the practise quite similar to those of life chapel lar....so, was quite comfortable there.....and the ppl there oso quite friendly la....
as for david, we wanted to be in the same church but if we can't its okie...even back in KL, we were not in the same church oso wert....so, he's now worshipping in ang mo kio and i'm worshipping in BSC.

And really...it's so scary and now it's already the end of the semester...in fact, i oni have 1 more exam to go...wah!!! i donno wat to say liao...coz it's so fast and the Lord's provision is so marvellous!!
I've got a church...cf...friends (close ones)....what else i need?? hehehe...it has been great la!!!

it's just such a pity i can't be around for christmas!!! i'm gonna miss it...celebrating christmas in BSC...but i want to be back to Life Chapel for Christmas too!!! esp when my sis is in acting!!!
hmmmm.....mebbe next yr?? i wish my friends and family could come to spore and catch all the photos...it's so beautiful!!! wah...it's nice!!!!

anyway......time flies!!! seize every opportunity that comes ur way...coz it probably wont back the 2nd time....really so much to thank the LORD for!!!

dumb...

Today is an alrite day onie lar...

I was reading Jess' blog and i was struck dumb...as in, i donno what to say....
Life is so unpredictable and there's so many things that could happen. I dread getting a call frm msia in case it delivers bad news...i'm scared someday my parents would leave me...i'm scared that my grandma will leave me...i'm scared that my siblings will leave me. I dowan that to happen at all!! but then again, death is an inevitable thing. I can't expect to not die rite? that's crazy...hehehe....but, i really scared la....i donno la...haih!!! Life is so fragile and yet we do not appreciate what we have. What kind of person are we huh??

the Lord gives and the Lord takes away...some might find that utterly nonsense....We have the right of being angry and wanting our loved ones with us...but den, look at Jonah...If he had the right to be angry, wouldn't God have more right to be angry?? The Lord was the one who created all of us. If we think we love our family, friends....what more God?! U think God don't love them?? haih....but our selfish eyes oni see what we want and not at long term....

On the not-so-positive side, i wonder why am i sometimes treated with invisibility. Am i invisible? I'm not rite? then, why treat me like that? i donno la...it's crazy...i'm in a crazy mood. on certain days, i dont care and couldn't even be bothered if i'm treated like as if i dont exist but when it comes to him, i want him to notice me...(not that i go out of my way to be noticed la...)but sometimes i question myself and ask why is it that i want ppl to notice me...why is it that i desire to be noticed...desire for the attention and even love...when God's grace and love is already sufficient?? goodness...i think it's a mood swing kinda thingy....at times i really feel like i don need guys....at times, i do....it's a complicated thing.....like ping suan alwiz say, can't live with them and can't live without them....hahaha...what an irony and crazee thingy....

anyway....i dowan to think edi la...coz i have summore exam coming along and i really shouldnt be thinking bout tis kinda thing...he will direct my attention to something else...stupid!!!

come on jeelee, focus on Christ!!! U know what u're suppose to be thinking and what u're not suppose to....focus focus......seish.....

i can't wait for exams to be over...den we're going to orchard!!! yay!!!!....so niceeeeee.....
can't wait can't wait!!! hahahah......
God bless ya all....

Todae again??

Todae....hmmm....

i tell u, i woke up so early this morning so that i can study my south asian studies. I had an exam at 2:30pm just now and i havent finish studying yet. That was why i needed to wake up super early to study. i slept at 1am yesterday morning and oni woke up at 7am tis morning...i consider it early lar...heheheh...

u know, yesterday i was so super tired and for those who know what is it like to study south asian, you would know how is it like...it's so super boring la!!! really lor!!! but den, the lectures are fun and nice lar...hahaha....anyway, as i was about to start studying last nite, i got an sms frm edmond. He say he got suprise for me...wah, i so touched! then i went and see him...rupa rupanya he made puddings!! wah...so super nice rite? hehehe....was so touched la....some ppl really go all the way out to bless others lar! and i was so touched. thank u!!!

den, i continued studying and den slept and tis morning wake up to study...but den it started raining and i just sleepier and sleepier as i study!! it's so nice to sleep in the morning, plus it was raining!!! anyway, i slept and study and slept and study....so, it was like dat until 12noon. den, i had to get ready...mandi, cook and eat...and den go for my paper.

Don't ask bout the paper. I think it was okie okie oni la..nothing fantastic but i know the LORd will glorify HIMself in everyway! so, i need not worry. The most important thing is that the LOrd's name is glorified!! yay!!!

i remember how ppl's achievement will not last. Story time :
Last time there was this dr. (he had a phd in donno what la..but the point is tis : he's super duper smart) and den he died. His children and wife had to move out because they had no more money. and there was just too many things to shift and they decided to burn some stuff...and guess what they burned?? they burned all his certificates and all his trophies. U see, these things never last. No matter how well we do in life, it will never last. Why do people strive so hard for the things that do not last? i'm not saying that we should not study hard. But, focus ur eyes on things that are more important and more lasting...relationships is one of them. The impact u have on other people's life is very important- that will last forever and never die. And things that God asks us to do - that will NEVER ever die!!! it will last forever!!!!

think bout it...the things u do. Does it last? will it stand the test of fire? will it get blown down when the 3 little piggies hide in it and when the wolves huffs and puffs and gives it a big blow??

So Sleeepy

I'm so sleepy...and i have been sleepy for the whole day edi...no wonder Jeremy calls me babi...den again, i told him not to call me dat...coz it sounds so rude rite?? call piggie i don mind la...i am wat...as much as i am thick skin, i will admit to what i really am wan!! hahah

well, tis morning, philo paper was alrite kua...in everything give thanks...so, i'm not gonna complain....

but tis morning, as i spoke to jeeleng, she said the whole family not coming to spore edi!!! wah!!! so sad!!! but nvm la, on the bright side, i can spend more time with friends lor....nvm nvm....don cry!!! heheeheheh

i've been slacking the whole day and dreaming of him...which wasn't very productive..i think i better make full use of the time i have tmr...if not, i sure die on fri for south asian...but den, i know i can depend on the Lord...and i also have to put in effort lar!!! hehehe...

okie okie...gtg edi...wanna sleep...tmr another long day...of studying!!!

meeseing someone???

Aiyoh....i tell u...today has been a very fun and funny day!!!
i tell u why....

i woke up super early tis morning!!! i woke up at 7:45am...hahah (ok la...not THAT early)...
But considered early la...coz i don have paper today u know....
anyway, woke up early to meet up wit Liren to pray before his paper...den, went back to my room...did my bsf work...heheh (skip so many days edi nv do bsf)...den went to canteen to study together with beverly, jeremy....den later came xunyu and veronique....so nice!!! den after tat, coung joined us too....i think everyone studies except me and jeremy...
we make so much noise until mama beverly scold us.... =(

anyway....we did study la....oh wait!! Jeremy din study la...he was just sleeping and talking oni....when we wanna go for dinner oni he started studying.....show oni la...nv do properly wan!!! hahaha.....
i studied frm 10-2pm...and den, frm den on, i played icq la...msn la....chatting and all that...hahahah
but after dat oso got do work la.....den after dat, we went for makan at mcd...den donno play what game la...stupid game...i kena forfeit makan fries!!! wah...crazy....

anyway...it was a fun and nice day......now, gotta go and study liao.....
all good things come to an end!! hahaha.....

Another dae of exams....

Another day....hmm...

WASSUP WASSUP....heheheheh

tis morning i woke up at 5:45am to get ready to study coz i was suppose to meet Liren at 8:15am at the bus stop to go to exam hall together...exam starts at 9am...well well....
must really thank God for helping me to study! the paper was quite alrite i must say!!! not too difficult but not too easy oso...i guess, the Lord really helped me quite a lot!!! really must thank HIm for the energy that HE has given me so far!!! if not, i sure die edi wan lor!!

anyway....i've been quite busy studying la...like one crazy fella....but everyday been studying together with beverly and jeremy...wah, really nice to study together...except for friday i studied in the library coz i really needed to study and whenever i study in the canteen, sure i get very distracted wan...so, i went there and studied and of course i pulled Liren along to study together with me..but he didn't stay very long la...coz i had exams at 2:30pm...and he left then oso...after my exams, i went back to the library and continue on studying lor...u know lar..exams need to study like some crazy fella lor!!! hahahah.....

anyway.....thank God for sustaining me thus far....thank God i'm still alive and well!!! i'll be praying for all those who's having exams and for those whom i ask for prayer list...and exam time tables....because i wanna pray for u lar!!! what else?? aduh!!!

oookie...i gtg edi...wanna continue studying......today a bit slacking...coz wednesday paper is philosophy and it's mcq...so, can slowly read the text la...which is what i am doing!! hahah!!!

okie okie...bye bye and God bless everyone!

Todaeee

Today was a good day?? hmmm....lemme think!!

I woke up not very early tis morning as i slept oni at 2 last nite...coz i was washing my clothes... See what u have to do when u stay alone and dont have ur mommy or popo to wash ur dirty clothes for u?? anyway....i woke up bout 9 plus....den brush my teeth and was in front of the comp...check my e-mails...and compiled a prayer list...for everyone who's having exams....
well, ppl need prayers....and i will pray for everyone who's having exams...it's really comforting to know that someone is praying for u and even greater peace to know that someone is interceding for u!!! wah...so nice rite??

anyway, den i almost fell asleep but luckily beverly sms me and ask whether wanna join her for studies anot...and i agreed...coz i oso wanted to study...but was falling asleep...so, i met her at arts canteen....studied there....until bout 8...was there frm 3...manage to go thru 5 lecture notes out of 10....so, quite good...but need to buck up and rush a bit more...coz loads to read and monday morning is my paper edi...den....at 8:15, we were at munchy monkey (NUS Cafe)...and it was showing Man U vs. Charlton?? or Chealsea?? i kenot remember edi...coz was enjoying the brownies and bev is not into soccer....heheheh....anyway, it was delicious lar!!!
and after dat i went to pgp, not back to my room to sleep but to meet up with PGP cg and we had a prayer session...so, we were just praying for one another!!! which was very good....upholding each other in prayer...and was just sharing on how good the Lord has been to each and everyone of us in our stressful week of exams....hmmm....

so...i just got back and i wanna sleep real soon....coz it's late...and i gotta get up early to go to church tmr....and my eyes are already closing!!! so, stop here...bye byeeeee.....

God bless everyone!!!!

hmmmm.....

What happened today ar???

I slept late last nite...oni slept bout 1 plus in da morning!!! Slept so late...doing wat ar?? i wasn't studying....i came back from bsf (bible study fellowship) at about 10:30pm...den ate dinner...den i was online la....dat was why i slept so late...

Den, tis morning woke up early...set the alarm clock to 6:30am...but when it rang, i was too sleepy and so i went back to sleep....i'm a piggie remember?? so, i need to sleep as much as possible lor...hehehehehe...anyway, ask me why i woke up so early?? i woke up to cook!!! can u believe me?? oh man...crazy fella..... (1) i dont like to eat out so often (been eating at arts canteen for the past 3days) (2) i wanna finish all the food i have b4 i go home (3) i wanna save money to buy pressie for Christmas!!

anyway...today was quite fruitful la...i think!! i went to library...did my bsf work there....did my QT in the library too...i need to go to the library early in order to be able to get a place to sit lor....if not, sure no place wan...anyway...i went there and study my malay studies as i had a paper at 2:30pm...so, studied and went for exam...
haiyoh...exam was horrible....u know why?? coz i oni realised i had 15 minutes for my last question!!! what??!!! goodness!!! anyway....i did my best....
However, to my suprise i wasnt feeling very lousy or very bad...tat was because i told myself that i need to glorify HIm no matter what I do...and whether or not i do well, God has His own way!!!! And HIS way is alwiz the BEST wan!!! heheheeh....so, i'm alrite... and i just need to have faith in HIM lor...nothing else but faith in HIm!!! He will never leave me nor forsake me...He is faithful...He is the same yesterday, today and forever.....

okie la...i wanna go sleep edi...

adios!!! take care everyone and love ya and God bless!!! continue to strive for the best because God oni deserves the BEST!!!

ermmmm....today??

today i started my day super early....6:30 i was edi up.....do wat?? spend real quality time with the Lord!!! hehehe....b4 my exam at 9am....

den went for exam...i don think i did very well la...could have done better....but, in everything, i need to give thanks to the Lord for HIs love and mercy endured forever!!! and i know that He is in control and i need not worry...whatever it is, i know it is HIm giving me HIS best!!!! yay!!! so no worries....heheheh....and i think in everything, the main thing i wanna do is bring glory and honour to HIS name!!! whether or not i do well, the most important thing is tat HIS name is glorified!!!! whether in studies, in life, in relationships....everything must bring glory and honour to HIS name lar!!! heheeheh....

den after the exam, i makan and started to slack the whole day!!! oh no!!! i did nothing the whole day lar...hahahah...die die la...okie la...i gtg edi...wanna sleep and den tmr another paper!!!
okie okie...ciao ciao....go and sleep now!!!

byeeee byeeee......

hey hey

Hey hey!!!

today....another funny day....love struck me is still a bit distorted la...donno what to do...hahaha...
donno how he feels...whether is it a one-sided love...of course i hope it is not la...BODOH!!! but den, is it God's will?? He seems to be saying yes...but i scared la...hahahah....i wonder what has God revealed to him?? i wonder i wonder...hahaha....

but of course...most importantly is dat i delight in HIM....in God la...hahaha.....den, all will be well...and HE will give me my hearts desire...but of course my most honest desire is to serve HIm...whether or not it's the same guy i'm love-struck with...hahahah.....most important is God leh!!!

kenot think anymore!!!! no more space for my tiny piny brain!!!! i need to study and to strive to do well in my exams le...dat's how i can glorify HIS name lor!!! HIs name is above all other name and it is very important that i glorify HIS name!!!!

yaya!!!!!

okie la....gotta go stick my nose to the books for now!!! hehehehehehe.....

God bless everyone!!!!!!

hhmmmmm......

Hey Hey.....hmmmm

lemme see....i donno whether to consider this a productive day or not....well, it was a good start of the day....spending time with beverly, jeremy and xunyu doing QT together!!! The Lord really said a lot of good stuff to me...reminding me that He loves me more than anything else in the world!!! which is the most important thing!!!! and the thing i need most....

but, as humans....we alwiz seek for human love...seek for guys attention....hmmm....(now i think i sound boy-crazy)...but, it's oni natural i would argue...but, God says He can satisfy my desires!!! All i need to do is to delight in HIM!!!!

anyway.....today....a weird day....as i saw me punya crush a few times a day altho i tot it would be quite impossible to see him today!!! hehehe.....

wah...i super open ar...telling everyone i got crush on someone...hahah...crush oni wert...normal la!!!! everyone sure got wan.....the question is just whether my tat crush got notice me wan anot?? hahahah....

oh no...i just realised tat my mommy oso reads my blogs...die la...but don worry mommy, i know what to do!!! hahaha.....

okie la...i very tired edi...need to sleep...tmr long day as i have exams on thursday!!! die la...bye bye and God bless EVERYONE!!!

MISSING EVERYONE AT HOME!!!!!

LOVE YA ALL!!!!

Belaian Jiwa

Seindah, tiada lagi kau ku ingatkan
Sayang, kau hilang
Menanti, biar sampai akhir hayatku di dunia ini

Kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Ohhh ohh
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa...

Ohh....angin....sampaikan laguku padanya yang sedih pilu
terimalah laguku jadi teman hidupmu untuk selamanya

Kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
ohhh ohh
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian Jiwa

sayang, kembalilah kepadaku
ku rindu belaian mu
ku harap kita bersama selamanya

Kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Ohh ohh
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

HappEeeeee

It's a happy day and i'm gonna give thanks to God for everything...really such a happy day!!!!
I must say EVERY SINGLE THING that happened today....
first of all, i had weng yan and weng li with me in worship la...and it was fantastic!!! having them around....den, came in some fellas....and a familiar face....adrian came...sat next to me....den worship started!! den....worship...and as i was praying, weng yan nudged me...den i look up, and guess who i saw?? it was alvin!! Weng Soon!!! Mun Onn!!! and Keat POh!!! wah!!!! suddenly i felt like i was in Life Chapel!!! woohoo!!!! it was fantastic...of course, i had to pray and ask God to help me keep my focus on HIM!!! so, worship means worship God...no playing around...even if i'm super happy that these ppl are here!!! wah!!! so darn happy la....anyway...so worship....den after the communion, den got say hie hie a bit...of course whisper la...of course adrian felt weird being in the midst of me and my friends...hahah...well, i hope he didnt feel weird la...anyway, it was nice of him to say hello to KP!!! and de rest of the fellas....hahahah
so....wah...it was super nice of them...i actually tot they will go to ang mo kio bethesda...coz they have friends there mah...why on earth would they wanna come to serangoon rite?? den, i asked mun onn, and he say they came to serangoon to see me la....(of course, mun onn oso had the intention to check and see whether i'm msian still anot!!...seish!!) hahahah
and it's just such a pleasant suprise!!! thank u guys!!! for the pleasant suprise and for taking the effort to come and suprise me...heheheh....really really appreciate it!!! really!!! thanks man....

and den we wanted to join the BSC gang for breakfast wan...but then, i din had money lor...so, instead we had something else lor...we went to plaza sing...and had makan there...den went to suntec...heheheh...walk until headache...until leg aching...haiyoh....me, weng yan and weng li....in the end sat at mcd to makan again!!! (what a pig...really 3 little piggies)...hahahah....

den...jalan summore la...until 7pm...wah..den we parted and hugged and sed our goodbyes!!! it was fantastic...hanging around again....and just spending time together!!! really....i really miss those time when we jalan until body aching!!! talk non-sens and fill the shopping centre with our laughters!!!! oh man!!! i think we were too loud edi la...but it's great la...i cudn't be bothered la...whether or not we were too loud....so long as we enjoyed ourselves...we enjoyed each other's company!!! it was fantastic la....and weng yan kenot stop with her teasing me....and she's grown to be more sarcastic...oh man.....i see what uni has done to her!!! and mebbe a bit too much of befriending evil Su edi!!! but it was fun lar!!! really really fun!!! she sarcastic.....me loud laughing....weng li silently giggling there....hahahah.....it was really nice.....i know weng li wished she was not part of tis crazy and embarassing gang!!! hahaha.....den again, i think she enjoyed it as much as we had fun laughing at each other's stupidity!!! hahahahah

anyway.....we really really had fun!!! thanks weng yan and weng li for all the time spent together!!! it was trully an amazing day man!!!! cannot stand laughing and smiling at all the stupid things dat we did...i felt really at home!!! u brought home to me!!! u brought life chapel to me!!!! thanks so much!!! really!!!! hahaha....thank u thank u!!!!it was really really fun!!!!

thanks to weng soon, keat poh, alvin and mun onn for making the trip to serangoon bethesda to see me...thanks for coming to say hello...thanks for everything man!!! and thanks for the pleasant suprise!!! really....thank u so much....i really appreciate it....and really thank u so much!!!! u guys have been great man!!!

to bsc fellas...esp adrian, for making the guys feeling welcomed!!! to annabelle, carol, germaine who said hello to weng yan and weng li, thank u ladies.....hehehehhehe

thank u again....woh hooo....it's a fantastic day and all thanks must be given to the Lord...for making such a wonderful day to me.....for making everything possible!!! thank u Lord!!! thank u Lord!!!!! thank u Lord!!!! woo hoo....how can i ever stop saying thank u?? the Lord has just been sooo great to me!!! sooo great!!!!! U have been steadfast and faithful O Lord!!! and i thank U for everything!!!!! thank u!!!! LOve u sooooo much!!!

love everyone sooo much!!!!......
can't wait to be back in pee jay...and yf camp!!! woo hoo!!!!!

Busy Busy Busy

Wah....i didn't notice tat it has been bout 3 days since i last wrote....wahseeeh....
I've been THAT busy ar?? i didnt notice and realise oso....hehehehe....

den again, i don think it was busy-ness dat kept me frm writting....hahaha....well, lemme think what have i been doing??
i went to the library on thursday!! a public holiday and i so darn semangat went to the library with Janice....wahlau...summore so stupid! I didn't realise that the library oni opens at 9.30am...but me and janice so semangat, went there at 9am...so, have to wait for the librarians to open the door lar....so KIASU man....my goodness!!! I have really lived up to Spore standards la...the Kiasu standard...Summore, in NUS!!! All the more have to live up to it lar.....haiyoh...
Anyway, went to the library and den study la...what else to do in the library...but i bought chocolates!! so, we ate in the library (shhhh!!!) - of course we were in the discussion room la...the whole room to the both of us!!! heheheh....of course at times when we almost fell asleep, janice and me would eat!!! hahahah....if not, sure fall asleep wan...so boring lar!!! study there...so quiet summore....(of course it'll be quiet la...stupid me!!)....oni manage to study for 2 subjects...wert lar....den, we decided to balik bout 3.30pm...because it being a public holiday, the library closes at 4.30pm and den Janice oso wanna go back and watch A Bug's LIfe....no, let me correct myself. The library doesn't usually open on public holiday...just because it's Spore, doesn't mean that they are so hardworking that they open on public holidays...but because exam is so near, so they oso buka la...on public holiday! knowing full well that ppl will sure to go to the library to study wan....ppl like me and janice!!! hahahaha....
den at nite, what did i do ar?? oh yah...i went for BSF...was late...for the first time!!! after3 years of being in BSF, i never late b4 wan...wah..tis time i so scared they don let me in for discussion...but luckily, i wasn't THAT late lar!!! so, manage to make it...
den after coming back frm bsf, i went online and chat la....summore do what!! was suppose to study wan...den jeevern came online....and one of my friend was oso online...he was a bit sad, so i spoke and chatted with him for a while lor...den, in the end, i went and sleep la...heheheh...NV study oso....

fri?? another monotonous day...study the whole day in the library....but the Lord was good to me...i was so scared that i cannot finish studying for south asian!! but, the Lord blessed me...without realising, i had actually done all the reading that i need to thru out the semester!! so, now not so much of work la!!! wah!!! really good la....dat's why i say our Lord very faithful wan!!! HE said HE will never leave me nor forsake me...HE never did!!! i told HIM i need help, and HE did!!!! wah...so good rite...even if i need someone to talk to me and to calm me down, HE's alwiz there to gimme the peace i need!!! wonderful...wonderful!!!
heheheheh.....

today, weng yan, charmaine and janice came to my room!!!! yay!!! i sooo happy!!!!! altho it was oni for a short while...but i really was very happy.....den after tat, i need to go and study...so, been studying since den la...of course got sleep for a while...and online for a while...hahahahha....

tmr...i'm gonna spend the whole day with weng yan and weng li...hopefully can meet up with keat poh, weng soon, alvin and mun onn too!!!! yay!!! tmr we having small LIfe Chapel gathering!!!! yaya!!!!!! i'm sooo happy...heheheheheheh......

okie...better stop here and get back to mugging ler......
ciao ciao...

Hardworking nyaaaa!!!!

Tiring!!!!!

today i woke up at 7am...cook...and den went to library...stay there the whole day...oh well, almost la....stayed there until 5pm....!!! wah....those who know me well knows tat tis is a big accomplishment man!!! hahahah

been so so so tired...study like dat...u say tired anot??? haih.....luckily i keep in mind....i'm doing tis to glorify God...if not, i sure balik and tidur edi...heheheheh....i'm a pig!!!! hahahahah....

as u can tell, i'm edi going nuts liao....so, i better stop here...it's a short short post....

everyone's too busy to read tis...let alone leave a comment....and den..mom is sick summore!!! haih....so sad......

byeee byeee.....

to all NUS fellas....don't be dismayed: You're not alone in tis!!! at tis time of the sem, know dat u're doing tis for God!!! (for some, it's for ur CAP)...hahahahha....take care.....

Beetteerrr....

I'm feeling much much better now!!!!

Was very down fer the past 2 days...super stressed coz exams are just round da corner and i havent started my revision yet...i just started oni on sat!!! a bit stressed coz got a lot of work to do and scared i cannot finish lor.....
and den somehow God seem so far away...But, thankfully, after earnest prayer and all tat, God has been faithful and reminded me again and again that i will not be tempted beyond what i can bear and He is faithful and will NEVER leave me nor forsake me!!! that's true comfort man!!! and i know HE loves me!!! sooo much.....
so, holding on to these promises, i'm feeling much much better now....

and another thing, i need to thank God for my family too....they have been super supportive...
when i'm down and i needed someone to talk to, i could easily turn to my family....and my sis(who's younger than me) has alwiz been there for me...listening to me and encouraging me and more importantly, pray for me....when i was down the past 2 days, i spoke to her and i felt a bit bette.....encouraged at how nice she is....thank u!!!

and my mom....she called me to make sure i'm alrite...she called to talk to me...tell me not to be so down....i love her for all that she is...and fer the rest of the family members who alwiz talk to me...pray for me....dat's the most important thing...praying for me...thank u!!!....altho most of the time i dont talk to papa, but i know that papa cares and whatever he wants to say to me, he'll say to mama...den she'll tell me....

so...to everyone...thank u....for loving and caring for me....
i love u all very much too!!! and whenever i remember of jee aun, i smile and thank God for blessing our family with a tiny rascal as he is!!!! (a lovely one tho!)

thank u...and looove u....

Anotheeer daaeee

Yoz.....

Loads of things going on in my tiny mind!!! so much dat i think i gonna explode edi....oh man!!! too much edi....arrrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!

I'm veri tired now as i type....coz the past 2 days has been quite tiring...wit so many things going on in my head.....well, one by one okie...

on fri...whole day slack in the library wit sarah....haiyoh!!! donno do what in the library... but i managed to pass up my assignments la....den, the good thing dat happened was : sarah bought me m&m....so nice of her rite?!!! wah...i so happy man!!! so so happy...coz really nv expect her to buy anything den she buy....summore m&m...not like it's cheap summore!!! THANK U!!!! U made my day woman!!!!

den, i went for last tutorial for english!!! wah!!! so sad rite...last tutorial edi!!! but then, jayven was so nice...he bought chips and soooo much food....wit guitar and camera summore!!! wah.....really gud man...and of course i was in EVERY picture la...hahaha.....one way of dispossing my sadness.....de-sad...hahahha....and den, he oso gave me a box of choco....summore frm germany wan!!! wah!!! i super touched man!!!!

but then, now a bit down.....stressed la....why NUS so stressful wan....i reali scared i kenot finish studying la....but i oso realise i need to depend on God for strength!!! need to trust HIM!!! nothing else more important!!! i know that!!!! need to trust HIm!!! i need it....ppl, please pray for me kay!!! thanks man....

okie la..i better go sleep edi...tired and smelly...havent mandi yet...hahahah.....

ciao ciao....

God blesss.....ya alll!!!!

eppiee den saad??

helloooo......

I wanted to post the blog earlier today wern...but then didnt had time..so, now i post rite, it will fall under fri..but it's actually vy vy late thursdae...anyway, wat i wanna say it's all about thursdae wan la..so when i say todae, it means thursdae okie?? heheheh

okie.....todae more of a happee dae... yesterdae i was veri sad...was veri down....but while i was down, the person whom i tot of msg-ing was sarah!!! yes , sarah siew!!! she's just so nice ler....i msged her and say i veri sad...den she asked why..and be the caring person dat she is!! i nv tot she'll be so caring and i never tot i'll think of her when i'm down lor....first of all, i've known her for not very long oni lor...the fact dat i tot of her, means dat i treasure her fwenship lor....and secondly, she isn't the mushy mushy type wern...super tomboy wan tis woman....so, i really nv tot dat i will think of her lor...but, i'm super thankful to God for her la....she's so nice...and while i was complaining and moaning, she comforted me...and helped me to think positively...and help me think of positive things....so, i really thank u la....thank u sarah!!! really...u've been a great friend altho we've oni known each other for (what?) 3 months?? really thank u sooo much!!!! really love ya lar....opps, eric better don see tis rite?? later he jealous...hahaha.....

and while she was talking to me, she suggested i take ice-cream or chocolate...of course i want lar...but where i wanna go and get it?? i actually have been craving for chocolate for veri veri long edi....and i finally got it todae!!!! i got chocholatessss!!!!! yay!!!!!

anyway, tmr will be our last english tutorial edi...so sad la...coz of all the tutorial grps dat i have, tis english one is da best....got to know a lot a lot of wonderful and special ppl......really love them a lot..really learn a lot of things frm each and everyone of them...so sad la..it's gonna be our last tutorial!!! haih!!! i'm gonna miss everyone so much....the way we go for class and sit outside the class in AS7 waiting for those ppl to come out...and while waiting, cheowLu will be singing....and jean and wai wai will sing along....(when i'm there, it feels like a sing-a-long class)....and if samantha is there, she'll join too....and the guys will just look at them and look at each other and shrug their shoulders...hahah (javen and jeff lar)...while Gan just ignore them or starts singing a tamil song!!! oh no!!! Anah will very hardworkingly read her stuff...then come the jappie gang...Yu Yan, XueLi and wei ying...all saying summimase?? i donno la....they all start talking in jap....haiyoh!! so irritating..but of course, what is class without them man!!! as much as they try to irritate me with their jap, but i really like them a lot...coz they are fun and caring ppl...alwiz laughing wern...hahahah....thanks gals...u nv fail to light up my days in class!!! hahaha...luckily Yu Zhen is not like dat...she's oso one jap girl....but not that crazy....lemme think....li min is nv early enuff for these rubbish...lucky girl!!! then comes sexy and pretty Lesley....den comes RongHe....he'll come so casual with only a file in his hands while we have huge huge bags....den comes smart smart and pretty janice (whom jeff called jasmine)....ron will come to class looking like as if he just came back frm a field game...(but lately, he's been looking good too)...tarik will come to class with his serious tots...den, liyee comes into class....honestly, i scared of her la...she a bit fierce lor....den in class, Gan brings laughter to the class!!! and his laughter is quite scary too...and he goes on and on saying he's french!!! and den...we'll go on wit class....Dr.June Ngoh will teach and she'll make it so interesting we nv miss class!!! we love her so much!!! and den, come discussion time....and we'll alwiz ask Jeff to share...His starting phrase is alwiz this "I think..." something we alwiz expect when he starts to talk....heheheh....it's vy funny ler... den when it's time to leave...we'll happily say bye bye to everyone...wit smiles on our faces....

oh no!!!! i'm sooo gonna miss EVERYONE!!!!!......

thank God for friends like sarah and friends in tut who has been just so nice!!!!!

gonna miss everyone ler.....

love everyone!!!!!

God bless kay all!!! and keep in touch okie????

Saaddd

I'm DOWN!!!!

i donno why...but after chatting with Sarah, i think i'm sad because i miss my daddy....
I really really miss my daddy....
to me, my daddy is someone whom i truly look up to!!! He's a very wise man...a man who fears the Lord...who loves the Lord with all His heart!! He taught me how to have a close relationship with God...taught me how to Love Him (God i mean)...taught me many many things.....he listens to me...altho sometimes, he's really tired, he'll stay up to chat with me...altho being a father, he doesnt express his emotions, then i ask again, whose father does dat??
i just miss him so much....many ppl (esp in church) has hurt his feelings by thinking he's not very well grounded in his faith...but i think He loves God more than many many people in the church!!! how dare they question my daddy's walk with the Lord...how dare they question my daddy's love for the Lord!!!
my daddy has lifted my self-esteem...alwiz telling me i can do it!!! even when other ppl think i cannot do it...or when i myself think i cannot do it, my daddy is alwiz there to tell me i can!!!

now, at times when i'm down and i feel i need an encouraging word, i wish my daddy is here....i wanna call back and talk to him...but i scared i cry...makes things worse....dowan la....
i wish my mommy is here too....she's a great mom!!! a mother and my friend!!!
why do i have to leave my family??? i wish they were all here with me....

i really really thank God for them...every one of my family member has been just sooo supportive....alwiz backing me up....thanks ya guys!!! i love u all very very much!!!! jeeleng and jeevern...altho younger than me, has been very supportive and encouraging.....i truly thank the Lord for all of u...even jeeaun...alwiz makes me happy.....and my popo oso....whenever i call home, she knows i miss home and will talk longer with me...asking me not to worry bout phone bill...say she'll pay!!! when i think of the wonderful family i have...i think to myself "i'm missing so much good stuff by being away frm them"....i want them here....

HAIHHHHH!!!!!!! SIGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Reeeport

Ellloooo....

Today not as slack as yesterday!!! so...YAY!!!!! so..very happy oh!!!! ok.....

Tis morning, was reading Hebrews 6: 4-12... one thing dat caught my eye was tis: "For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tastd the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put HIm to an open shame..." i was taken aback when i read tat...i mean, we will crucify Jesus again and put Him to an open shame when we fall away!! it's scary.....it just shows how we need to be careful of our actions and behaviour and words!!!! wah!!! i definitely dowan to crucify Jesus again!!!! no way man!!!! it's already too amazing dat He went thru all the suffering He did just to safe me and bring me near to HIM....

But again, He has promised blessing and His presence forever...he said He'll never leave us nor forsake us!!! and of course my God is a very very faithful God!!!I know for sure He'll keep to His promises!!! definitely!!!!! isn't He just a wonderful God!!! wow!!!!!

Anyway....today i went for lecture, i tell u...my stupid lecturer havent finish his 10 lecture....today oni 9th lecture...but he sed it's the last lecture...what lar!!!! stupid guy!!! so irritating!!!! anyway, it seems dat all lecture should end tis week edi....so good la...got more time to do revision for exams...i need it man!! i havent started revision yet...coz my projects oso havent finish...how to start wit revision rite??!!! aduh!!!!

but not bad la...js now in da afternoon, i did a bit of work...den slept for awhile...den did my work again.....so, quite good la...altho i shouldnt have slept in da afternoon...heheheheh

anyway, now continue studying again lor!!! heheheheh.....

and den, just now my result for my online assessment out edi....i veli pandai...scored full marks!!!! but then, oni 5 marks counted in the overall result...plus my assignment and my finals!!! so...apa la...5 marks oni!!!! heheheheh....crazy fella.......hehehheheheheh

but, i'm oso vy confused la....weng kit ask me to go for RBS mission trip....vy nice wern!!! i wanna go!!!! i really wanna go!!! but den, i having skool...i can skip if i want....but is it wise?? someone pls help me!!!! how lar????

oh...today, weng yan e-mailed me...but guess what, there was a problem pasting the e-mail frm words to hotmail...so, i had to read an e-mail frm WORDS!!! what??!! funny rite??hehehhe!!! But it was super super nice to get an e-mail frm her....esp a vy long e-mail!!! really nice man!!! I miss her so much.....and she sent me e-mail!!! yay!!! so nice!!!!

and den got nice long mail frm mommy too!!! so happy.....

den, my sis sent me photos of Joshua....well, he changed his hair style....i wanted so much to see....but me in spore, how to see leh?? so i got my sis to take pics of him for me....Joshua, you look so different!!! you look so good!!! After soooo many years, he's finally decided to change his hair style... Joshua Lee Weng Yee!!!!! Please remember that this fella has had the same hair style for 18 yrs edi!!! now, he decide to change!!! not bad...i wonder what cause him to change his hair style?? why ar josh???
not oni did my sis sent me pics of josh...got one josh take together with yueen san oso!!! wah...yueen san, i miss u ler!!!!! so nice to see ur pic.....
eh, how come no pic of weng yan wan???
hmmmmm.....

okie lar...i gtg liao....evil su is telling me how he forgot to bring wallet and no money to pay toll and need to call timothy to help him out...hahahha....so funny la....summore have to reverse the car all the way to rest area!! wah...his reversing skill sure very guddie edi now....now he can teach me....my reversing skill sux...i can park well tho!! heheheh....no la...Su's driving skills is good..except tat he drives a auto and i drive a manual!!! onie manual car drivers got skill!!! hahaha....dat's generalizing la!!!

okie okie...bye bbye....

i miss jee aun...!!!!!

Weeniee the Pooh - my fav!!! I'm de pooh---fattie but cutey!! =) 

A meaningful time...

Yo.....Wassup....Hello!!!...

It's been a so-so day onie today!!! actually, it was a wasted day....i slept the whole day when i was suppose to be studying....what's tis man??!!! been a pig....eat edi den straight away hit de bed!! goodness!!!!

den i went for my genes and society class....it's the 2nd last lecture...wow...next mon is revision...so fast rite?? goodie!!! den i h of dinner with Gloria....had a great time of sharing of our lives....see, it's just the time of the semester where everyone i just so busy with assignments and den starting with revision....altho i'm being complacent and ignorant, deep down below i know that exams is oni about 2 weeks plus away!!! haih!!!! Die lar!!!! i haven't even finish with my projects and essays, lagi la i haven't started my revision...tis really shows how slack i haf been!!!!

anyway, after dinner with Gloria che che, we went over to Bernard's place for Bible Study....He's actually the adult staff worker in Navigators of NUS....He invited me over for Bible Study b4, but i had my reservations then and of course it wasn't because i look down on the Bible study or anything like dat...i was just contemplating on whether to join Nav or VCF (Another CF on campus)...anyway, i went today and we were studying Mark 3....was touched!!!

De thing that i learnt which spoke to me most was that the God dat i have is not a condemning God...Jesus said in John 3:17 "For God did not send HIs Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved." and in Luke 9:56 "For the Son of Man did not come to destroy men's lives but to save them."

I was touched that....although we've been cleansed from sin and the chain that binds us to our sin has been broken by Christ, we still sin and we so often than not fail Him....And i wonder how God feels...He sent His one and only begotten Son to die for us, and we still hurt Him by sinning and by failing Him....Of course we are not perfect and our imperfectness causes us to sin. And sometimes i wonder how angry God will be??!! But, when i read those verses, i was reminded again dat as much as God dislikes sin but He loves us very very much....hate the sin but love the sinner!!! How blessed i am!! to be loved altho am so unworthy of His love and so undeserving of His grace!!! And i was also reminded of how Jesus come not to condemn us...and He will not condemn me of my sins now...instead, He's calling me to Him....He's probably saying " Come here, my dear Jee Lee, come to me..." wow!!! what a magnificient and caring father we have!!! it's amazing how much God loves us!!!!

so....really there's A LOT to thank GOd for!!!! Just so much!!!!!

so...altho today i've been slacking...but, it has been a fruitful day in that God has spoken to me and touched me again...showing me how much He loves me!!! so great!!!

God bless ya all out there!!!!!

Meeseeng everieone

now now!!!! I MISS LIFE CHAPEL!!!!!!!!

I just went into life chapel website and i saw all the fund raising pictures!!! i wish i was there.....why oh why am i here?? got nice yummy nasi lemak summore!!!! my favourite!!!!

I miss de ppl ler.....Weng Yan....Yin Ngai....Yueen San...Joshua...Shelby....Su Yuen Hsiang....Ah ma PC!!!

People.....i miss u ler!!!!! haih!!!! I miss YF!!! i miss everyone.....i miss the whole planning of the fund raising...it's fun rite?? darn fun lar!!!! did american breakfast again?? copy our menu again lar sure wan.....
Weng yan, Aliza, Joanna,...they copy our breakfast menu and our specialty!!!! next time we better copyright our stuff lar...heheheheh......

De onie comfort i have for myself is tat, i have another one more month...and den i'll be back in LIFE CHAPEL....and in camp!!! yah!!!! SEE ya guys!!!!!