Oh my goodness!!!!

I'm so excited right now!

I was just browsing through a photo gallery that my friend posted and as I was just looking at the pictures, I thought not of that friend but of JOSHUA. Yes!! Joshua. I don't know...the buildings, the lights, the sceneries, the painted glass, the everything....and THEN, the ultimate!! I saw a picture that has a banner that has the word that makes up Joshua's email! Oh my gosh!!! I miss Joshua! (not that I don't miss everyone else too...but there are just days that you miss specific people. So, today just seem to be Joshua's day.)

I don't normally use the toilet upstairs mainly because my room is downstairs and so it's so much more convenient to use the toilet downstairs. ya. But today, the Monday GC here. So, I went upstairs to use the toilet since the girls' toilet is upstairs and the guys toilet is downstairs. And then, I squeezed some soap onto my hand so that I can wash my feet. The aroma was so strong - the soap I mean. And I was brought back in time 2 years ago. It was the exact same aroma of soap that I first use on the first day I arrived in Singapore!!! Exact same smell! And then, all the memories came flashing by my head. Oh gosh! I could almost see myself crying in the toilet - well, that was what I did on my first day here in Singapore! Oh my....all the memories and then all of a sudden, I really felt like crying. I really miss having my mother here with me. Oh my!!

Was very tired this afternoon from standing at Matric Booth the whole morning and talking to people and at the same time, feeling so hungry that I thought I was going to faint anytime. Hence I tried sitting down everytime the booth area seemed empty. But now, I'm so energised la. With the aroma still in my hand, I cannot but still think of home....

I need to write to Weng Yan!

You're still you

Josh Groban's voice is superbly charming! Oh goodness.

A list to my future husband: Must have singing voice like Josh Groban, the cheerfulness of Geoff, the funniness of Dave!!
Dream on Jee Lee!!!haha....

It really sucks when people meet me and they say "Hey, you look tired!" Oh man!!! I hate it when people can tell from how I look. Man, I must really start smiling more!!! Seish. It's just that most of the time, it's so tiring that I just really want to sleep but I should learn to not think about myself so much.

Funny la....sometimes things in life goes around in circles but at the end, it'd still go back to the starting point. Haha....then you wonder whether maybe somewhere down the journey, you could have taken another path that may lead to a different end. I'm not too sure.

anyhow, you're still you.... :)

God is good!!!

Woah. Tired. And finally get to rest a bit more today. So, pretty happy.

I was pretty unhappy earlier that I didn't get to go back home although I could actually do so. But, am glad that I got to rest a bit more today and tomorrow also. PLUS, I called Charity and spoke for a very long time to Joshua too. haha....Ears all red edi....

Found out about the attack on Dr.M today made me feel so sad. I've been praying for Malaysia and seeing that there is political unrest in the country makes me feel so sad. Previous PM and current PM not having the best of relationships, the people not in harmony with the government etc etc... sigh. Feeling sad, I expressed it to Hui Yue, Ronglong and Jeremy. Only Jeremy is in the know about this issue. But what saddened me was when Rongz said "Good!" I turn and look at him and said "Good?" Woah....That probably tested my "loyalty" towards my country and there and then i felt like crying. My country is facing this and you say Good??? oh no! But I learn one fact from this, which is that, People have selective memory and have a greater tendency of remembering the bad things which people do rather than the good things. People remember Dr.M for the bad things that he has done but not for the good things that he has done for the country. I'm not suprise at this because it's so natural for people to behave that way. But, it's a sad fact isn't it?!

Today I got to personally hear the testimony of two very teachable person and honestly, when I was hearing it, I told myself "Man, i'm so far from being as teachable as these two person are!" It is never easy isn't it? Being so humble and teachable. It'll be super difficult - esp to a person who is as proud as I am and who has that amount of ego as I do.

Oh God, teach me!

And I totally respect Gloria for the courage and faith she has in God. Man, would I have that amount of faith as well? Hah! I've like lost so much hope and faith in that matter already.

In terms of BGR...
Well, there are things that I need to settle with God. But I don't feel like I want to have this issue bother me this year - although I'm not sure what's causing this determination. Right now, I just want to serve God whole heartedly and study well and learn more about my "calling" and how God can make me more to be like the woman God intends for me to be. ya. I've a lot to learn and maybe not in the best position to have a relationship. So, better not think about it now. Rite? hehe....

Well, I don't dare say that for the rest of the year, I won't struggle with it. I am a weakling! So, we'll see how God leads la ya. :)

God is sovereign over my life and He loves me.

I just feel that I need some time alone with God!! I need that time so desperately!

Ahh....

The pot luck tonight held for the Americans is just over – ending, delightly, with the Americans trying our very much favourite tropical fruit – DURIAN! Putting my photography skills to good use, I took some pictures that really captured each emotions well – if only, I had a better camera! Anyhow, it’s good la. There was just an overload of food and Karen went on and on about how I shouldn’t eat so much and that I should lose more weight – even on my first serving! So, that was superbly strange and even Danielle and Petra looked at me strangely – more like, pitifully.

Anyhow, it was a good time spent today.

Since I was at our exco retreat yesterday and a few things happened, I felt I needed to talk to Lilian. So, I spent quite some time today just talking to her about some of the things that has been happening to me and some of the revelations I had about myself at yesterday’s exco retreat. Ya. So, it was good being able to chat and talk with Lilian. You know, having a mentor is not like the most natural thing for me especially, approaching her to talk about stuffs concerning me. So, I have never taken any initiative steps to meet her. Most of the time, she tells me when she wants to meet me, which I realise isn’t the best because I realise that I still keep A LOT of things to myself and even at my most desperate times, I won’t initiate. Slowly, I’m learning to approach people more and that there is nothing wrong in doing that. So, today we spoke and she ended by saying “if there’s anything, next time, let me know so that things don’t get piled up” which is true because we spoke from about 1130 till 1530 – many hours eh? Ya…I also thank God for allowing Danz and Petz to go with Bernard to Ice-skate. If not, I won’t be able to have a 4 hour chat with Lilian. Hehe…much needed intercession!

Hands are experiencing skin peeling! Probably due to much exposure to water – washing dishes and all that. Ya. Oh my, the pot luck was awesome because people came and make special dishes, which was awesome! Do you know you can make awesome cheese cake without using cheese??? It’s superb! I must get the recipe from Dave!

And I must say this: Geoff is the friendliest of all and he is so jolly!! People should really learn to be more like him! He brings joy!! Dave is superbly funny! And Tim follows along to be funny. I tell u!

All the summer mission team people HAVE to try at least one piece of durian. So, each person were called out to eat.
Then, Lilian comes in and offers a ride to the mrt.
Lilian: Does anyone need a ride to the mrt?
Dave: Yeah, I think we do. (So, he brings Tim along and they both walk out of the house and the rest of us just watch them REALLY leaving the house).

Okay…it might not seem so funny here but I tell u, it was so funny when we were there and we watch them do it.

My husband should have the jolliness of Geoff and the funniness of Dave. Man, my life would be so FUN!!!! Haha….

Anyways……

And you know, I kinda miss Edgar. Funniest thing would be that he’s gone to Genting Highlands for a family trip that will probably last only for a few days. So, what’s there to miss rite? Ya…but I do!

Donno leh...

Tomorrow I’d be gone for a mini exco retreat. This exco is definitely very much different from the previous. I don’t remember having so many “retreats” and meetings even before the semester starts. As for whether it is good or bad, I don’t have any comment. Just that I’m feeling physically a little tired. Maybe because there’s the Summer Mission Trip people here too. And then, there’s preparation for matric too. I don’t remember doing all the printing and stuff for the matric. I think Jing Jing did most of it. No wonder feeling a little tired.

I remember Adrian once said, “It’s easier to fall into depression when you’re physically tired” or something to that effect.

I don’t think I’m depressed. Just that, part of me wish to go back to KL this weekend. One reason would be because I miss home. Second reason would be because Charity will be leaving for UK this Saturday. I know I’m not best of friends with her but still, we’ve served God together, and I’d still not see her for the next a year plus. So, I’d still miss her. But, I can’t leave Singapore mainly because I’ve things to do here. People will be busy preparing for matric and I really shouldn’t leave! I wouldn’t want Courtney to feel as if her partner has left her alone too. Not that I need to be with her every moment but I don’t really want her to feel alone, esp when everyone’s partner will be around. Ya. So, for the above reasons, I’m a little sad that I can’t be home.

Oh well, whatever things I wanted to pass to Charity, I’ve already given it to my sister. I hope she has already passed them to Charity! And maybe I’d call her to say my bye-bye on Friday.

I’m so tired...

...But I dare not go to sleep now because it’s too early to sleep and if I do sleep now, I’m very sure of getting up at 12-ish AM and then struggle to go back to bed again. So, nope! I shall read and do some other stuffs while waiting for time to pass.

Met Clement today! Oh Boy! It was nice meeting someone familiar (who’s not from Nav) and just chatting. And guess what I found out? A few weeks before school ended, I collected an essay which had horrible results. So, all of us (Myself, Adrian and Adeline) were shocked and we were quite unsure of whether we’d even pass this module or not. Clement asked me “So, how did you do for that module?” Hesistant to give a reply. He guessed – rightly. And then he said “God answers prayers”. I was shocked, saying “You prayed for me?” And he said “yes, prayed for all of you!” Woah. He prayed for us! It’s so funny because I know very few people who would actually pray for another person’s results…haha…esp, when he/she has got nothing to do with it. Ya.

Anyway, am really missing home. I’ve been trying to ignore the feeling but speaking to edgar last night made me realise how much I miss home. I want to go home but I can’t always just go back as though I have no responsibilities here. That probably explains my blueness today. Then, when I got home and checked my mail, I received a mail from my father. Me and my parents normally mail each other almost everyday. But, I have not written to them ever since I came back. And my father seldom writes to me. Even if he has something to say to me, my mother normally does the emailing. So to receive a mail from my father brought tears to my eyes – especially when he writes “We’ve not heard from you. How are you doing?” I miss him. I miss my family!

Yeah la.

Bored la...

I decided to post some pictures up...

While I was in Malaysia, I forgot to bring back my phone cable. So all the pictures that is in my phone couldn't be transfered to my comp. But now that I'm back in Spore and was able to find my cable, I have transfered the photos to my comp. So, here are some of them. Just for the fun of it.

This post probably has got nothing significant in it. Just for the sake of doing something. hah!


Here's DOULOS.........


Here's the broken hairband that Weng Yan got for me after she broke mine. But, it was too fragile that it broke after a few days too. Well, mebbe i've got big head. haha....Anyhow, it was quite a sweet hairband but too bad it broke....





This is the super adorable and cute!!! It's a miniature tea set with words "I love you". It's so cute don't u think so? My gosh! It's Joshua's.






This is Panda Chocolates!!! Soooo cute!!! Yueen San's father got it when he was in Korea (I think!). Too cute to eat it rite? haha...







Nothing much edi....

Like I said, i'm blogging for the sake of it - bored ma!

I tell you, the Americans who are with us are so funny. They are so into catching the Singaporean slangs...all the "..la" "...ma" "...loh"...and etc. It's so funny coz they are so not used to it but they want to learn it....so cute! And it's also interesting that many of these Americans are Chinese Americans....Instead of the usual Orang Putih....

haha...

ciaoz....

Sadness...

I can’t explain the sudden interest in following Lina Joy’s case. I’m no lawyer so you ain’t gonna get any solid comments from me – legally speaking.

But a friend a few days ago read the case and her response was this: It’s scary that something like this is happening so near me. As you can tell, she’s Singaporean.

But yes indeed. It is scary. Very scary! And I was just reading an article in Malaysiakini and it was an interview with someone important who expresses his concern and dislike when he sees how religion is influencing judgement being passed. The whole Lina Joy case is a big testament to this. I mean, if the court can allow her to change her name and accept her reasons for changing her name, why can’t they just remove the religion label that is given her in her IC? I don’t know but to me, it makes full sense that if you can accept a particular reason for her change of name, there’s no reason to not grant her the removal of the religion stated.

Sigh.

So now, syariah court and court of appeal fights….and this will go on till forever and I wonder whether she got married after they change her name anot? Cause if she didn’t, then people should realise that they’re stealing her youth from her! Which is super sad!!!

For those of you who know her case, do keep Lina Joy and family in prayer. Pray for our country and her legal system too. God grant us leaders for us to obey but let these leaders be servants to the most High God – whether they want to or not. Let them obey The One True God. Yeah.

Anyhow, NECF Malaysia is organising a fast-and-pray-for-Malaysia. So, do try to get hold of a copy of it. No matter where we are, I think one thing we have to bear in mind is that as we still hold Malaysian Citizenship, we are to pray for the country because I believe we’re not born Malaysian Citizens for no reason. And if we don’t pray for the country, then I think we shouldn’t complain. We are placed as high priests for the country and let us then exercise what we’re called to do.

Weng Yan, try to get better ya.

It's quite a struggle...but most of the time, worth it!

I’m now in Singapore. First day in Singapore and this was how it was like.

I arrived in Singapore at about 9am and took a bus to reach where I stay and got “home” at about 10am. Walked into my room but saw my table filled with things and my bed with some clothes. Assumed that someone was occupying my room while I was away. So, I didn’t had the liberty to clear my bag and rest on my bed. It’s okay. I then, took out my laptop and checked my mails and chatted on MSN. Was getting bored, I mean, really bored. So, I bathed and then went out for lunch with ronglong.

Lunch turned out to be about 3 hours long. So, there goes my visit to the bank.

Then, rushed to the shop to buy toothbrush and shower gel. I’ve run out of those and it’s essentials! Got home and was ready to leave the house again.

You see, I was asked to partner a girl who is here on a mission exposure. I didn’t quite knew what it demanded and reluctant to take on another responsibility, I said NO to my leaders. Yes, Jon, this was the NO I was talking about. There was an orientation program for them today and because I said no, I didn’t go for the orientation program. At about 1 plus, my ministry leader calls me and says I should be there. I was surprise, honestly. Because I’ve already told my leaders I won’t be there. So, why should he asks me to go? Unless of course, my leaders didn’t inform him. Anyhow, I obeyed.

And as I was thinking about it….well, maybe it’s God’s plan.

My train of thoughts run like this:

A few days ago, I was reflecting a little bit and I realised how anti-social I’ve become and it’s a sad thing for me because of all the gifts I have, friendliness is one of them and making people feel welcomed and comfortable is gift that I treasure a lot. And I realise that I’ve not been exercising my gift very much! How I knew? A few Sundays ago, a bunch of people from MV Doulos came to my church and some aunty came over to where we (the young ppl) gathered and asked us to go and befriend them. I was reluctant. I mean, how selfish can that be?! I am unwilling to even go and say HIE to visitors of our church. I rather sit in my corner of comfort and not be disturbed. And so, it struck me! That I’ve become so anti-social, so comfortable in my little zone that I’m unwilling to budge to make people feel welcomed! That I’ve stopped exercising my gift that God has given me. And so, I prayed! REAL HARD that God will not take away that gift from me and HE will help me exercise it more! It’s a gift I really treasured!!

And when my leaders from Singapore emailed me about this opportunity to serve these “missionaries”, I was pleased because I felt that this is an answered prayer – that God is giving me an opportunity to exercise the gift that He once gave me. Yet at the same time, I was reluctant because I didn’t want to get out of my comfort zone.

I ignored all that I was feeling and started weighing it all by it’s pros and cons and I thought I don’t want to get myself into another commitment when I myself have already quite a handful of things to do. And that was why I said NO to my leaders.

But, I’m guessing that God has His ways of doing things and maybe HE really wanted me to be the companion of that girl. And maybe it’s for that girl’s benefit too. Because if I don’t partner her, she’d be alone and she’d have no local companion. Either way, it was God’s plan.

The fact that I was bored today and that Bernard didn’t get my refusal notification and asked me to be meet them tonight was sort of a way of God saying to me that He wants me to do this and other things I had in mind could probably wait. Yes.

So, I’m going to say YES to them this time.

Sometimes it’s tough. I know most people would say I’m a very obliging person and I won’t give NO as an answer to people. And I also know that some people might even question “must everything be so God-oriented?” My answer is this: In my relationship with God, many a time God allows me to make my own decision. He places the pros and cons in front of me and tells me to choose. And so, it’s up to me. And I can say NO. Like this time. But ultimately, I feel that it also comes back to the question of whether I want to cooperate with God in this or not. God’s plans for us are great but if we don’t cooperate with Him, we either have to wait a longer time OR forget about that wonderful plan God has for us. Either way, it’s our choice. The way I see it, either way, I lose out. So, that’s why I have a greater tendency of obeying and choosing to do the things that might so-called benefit me and cooperate with God.

And many a time, it ain’t easy. But, like Eric Liddell once said too, “ If there’s anything worth doing, it’s worth giving our best” and in this instance of my relationship with God, if it is worth keeping and strengthening the relationship, then it’s worth giving my best. And giving our best in anything is never easy!

I struggle and I’m not perfect. But that’s exactly how I see life on earth is about: it’s about us sinful and imperfect human being perfected for HIS glory! And one day, when we meet God, one day, I hope He will look at me and say “welcome home, my faithful daughter”! And to achieve that, it’s even more effort demanding then trying to be in the dean’s list or trying to be the richest woman on earth! So, it ain’t easy and I ain’t perfect.

Saying goodbye sucks!

I shall say bye bye here! I’d be gone for another 4 months plus. I’d see you KL-ites in December!
I hate saying bye bye. So, it sucks this time too.

Yesterday, I had the privilege of having friends who gave me their time and had breakfast with me. I know some of them have breakfast with me solely because I was leaving. So, thanks guys!

Ngai ngai, I'd miss you and ur earnest friendship!

To the rest of the Weng Yan and Yueen San who sat with me in BK and then watched Tamiya car racing, go from shop to shop looking at shoes, then go from shop to shop looking at clothes…and basically just enjoying each others’ company before I leave, thank you! I’d definitely miss you guys so much!

To Shelby and Liyee, you girls are missed much – especially for all the times we’ve spent together during this holiday. All those personal times…and the fun times we had…haha….

To Christopher, I’d miss you la squatto!! And happy belated birthday! You bring laughter to those who spend time with you and that is a great blessing!

And to Samuel, the one person who you can talk to and be asleep before you finish your sentence!, I feel that we’ve ber-bonded a little bit more tis holiday.

To Jon, though this holiday we didn’t spend as much time as we did during my last 3 month holiday, still, thank you for the Williams session, Red-box and Bridget Jones Diary 2. Haha… You take care okay….

Finally, to Joshua, I’ve never been angry with u so many time in such a short time until this holiday. It’s a test of our friendship, eh. But, you’re forgiven, though you never know when you’ve hurt me, and never said sorry. But, that’s what friends do isn’t it? Friends forgive one another! Hehe… Anyway, thank you much for all the times we’ve spent together. And since you won’t miss me, I shan’t either. Hehehe…

Oh how can I miss, mr. yee weng soon, did weng yan tell you that we saw mr.good-looking on ur friendster punya brother? Haha… now that I’m gone, you’d miss having someone to disturb. But, it’s alrite…your name will still appear in my blog. Haha…

Cherios la guys….

My holidays coming to an end soon...

The World Cup 2006 is now over. You know, I actually thought I’d cry during the final game. Men having pushed to their limits, played tirelessly, and now gaining what is probably the most coveted prize – the cup itself. But I didn’t.

I met Soo Yi in MidValley Megamall. Soo Yi and I were in the same BK class for 2 years and she’s a wacky girl. We used to sit next to each other during class and we’d whisper and try not to laugh too loud in order that our very strict BK teacher would not scold us. Anyhow, she and I have always tried to meet up whenever she’s back from Australia and when I’m back from Singapore. And on Sunday, we met! FYI, I never liked shopping at Megamall. I find that place too big and the price for things there are a little bit on a higher end. Anyhow, Joshua wanted to buy something and so we went there. It was funny how me and Soo Yi “found” each other. Me and Josh was walking out of Isetan (or was it Jusco?) towards Royal Sporting House when I looked into this shop (I’m not too sure whether Soo Yi called me or not) and it was then that our eyes met. And we were like, HELLLOOOOO!!!! And did a bit of catching up…

And talking about catching up, I’ll be leaving for Singapore in a week’s time but I’ve not met any of my secondary school mates! Oh my! I guess, this week, I’d go and meet up with them and then visit my school teachers too.

Don’t ask me how I feel about going back to Singapore. Because despite how I feel, I will still go back.

A week from now, I’d be back in Singapore already. Another year of learning. Another year of training. Another year of growing.

A pessimist by nature, I am learning to be more optimistic.

There are things that I look forward to returning to Singapore. It’s not like a total lost.

Just that, sometimes, the push factor is stronger than the pull factor.

For Yee Weng Soon

So Mr. Yee, you have the privilege of being the title for my post. Mainly because he complained to me that some people has been laughing at him and he blames it on me. So, here's to those people, don't laugh at him anymore because he then irritates me till I feel like committing suicide. Please! For my sake okay!!! (and to those people, you can direct him here. We must make him feel privileged!) ;p

THE privileged Mr. Yee Weng Soon confronted me today about why I write about him here that caused him being laughed at. And well, he didn't want to have a decent conversation with me after that but decided to foresee what I'd write about our conversation. Yes. It wasn't a nice conversation. Well, you do the imagination yourself : We are sitting on a pew in the church basement with YF students all around. And as I talk to him, he will move his fingers as if typing on a computer and start vocalising all the things he presume I'd write in my blog.(Yes, he was ignoring me) So basically, I felt like I was talking to a wall and there is a voice (which is suppose to be mine) saying things which were suppose to be my thoughts. Ya. It was irritating!! But I guess, that's Weng Soon. And yes, he conveniently forgot that he owes me money!!!

So...that's for Mr. Yee!! Happy?!

Now....

I went to Doulos today!! The port is soo far!! Oh my gosh. I almost died sitting in the car. Thanks San for driving!! :) It was so hot in there, like a sauna. People were sweating like cows. But, I manage to get 2 books for almost Rm10 and 3 cassettes for Rm12. Not bad eh!! Haha....Don't tell me go all the way there and come back empty handed meh? Too bad I didn't bring enough money, I saw a few books that I was interested. I'd probably go back there with my father and I'd make sure I brought enough money. But it was fun la...Don't know when Doulos will dock at Port Klang again.

So tired.....

I had a chat with Hoonch today. Sigh. And we spoke about my stay in Singapore. He did manage to give me the other side of the coin to think about and I guess, to a certain extent make it easier to consider staying in Singapore and not be so bias in my decision making. I'd think about it more and not be too rash and emotional in making a decision about this. Hoonch prayed for me and for that I'm very thankful. It's been hard for me. Does anyone even know how heartbreaking it is? When your heart is so burdened for one place but there might be a possibility that your burdened heart just have to wait extra 4 years to finally fight for everything it's burdened for. Maybe it'd be best if my heart is not burdened. Maybe its best if I have no desire. But, can an alive person ever not have a heart burdened for something, a heart desirous of something?? Can?

Sigh......

Like Hoonch prayed for me, God, please be merciful!!!

For the sake of it...

XiaXue has probably got the worse blog around. I do not understand how she gets the "Best Blogger in Asia" award. Kennysia.com is way much better, IMHO. I donno, does XiaXue thinks she's cute? Coz she almost made me puke when I read her blog. It's full of her (disgusting) pictures. Oh my! If she can win the award for being the best blogger in Asia, what then has the world of blogging gone to?? Oh my!

Classes start for all local university students on Monday. With that, I declare ultimate boredom for me! Well, I do have books to keep me company but that's about it. Especially when the books that I read now are not exactly the kind that pumps my adrenaline but instead has a great tendency of putting me to sleep. Nonetheless, these are books that I told myself I'd finish before I return to Singapore. I shall keep to my word. Especially if I am still interested in borrowing the book from Joshua's father. (And I am most interested!!) I actually have exactly 10 days from today to finish books that I intend to read, knowing very well that if I don't buck up and read more, I will only be able to finish 1 out of 3 books I intend to finish.

Been feeling fat for the past few weeks and so I've finally decided to go for a jog. But not alone. So, I muster up every ounce of courage to ask wengyan for a jog but I guess, she doesn't feel fat now. Instead of jogging, I sat in her room talk rubbish and I went home with 2 boxes of chocolates from Aussie. Haha…Talk about irony! (And no, I'm not in the self-pity mood. Instead I'm in the real-life mood).

I had lunch with my god-sister, Adelene. Happy Birthday!! The A&W at The State, PJ is the best la!!!

I'll be going to Klang tomorrow - hopefully for some bak kut teh? But, mainly to bring Yueen San buy some clothes AND to visit Doulos.

Maybe if I can muster enough diligence tomorrow, I'd go jogging and hopefully that kick starts a jogging habit and (cross-fingers) hope that I'd feel less fat soon. hehe….

What is THE answer?

What do you do when 7 people have 3 hours of free time? You can’t play badminton – you’d need a lot of money to book courts for 3 hours! So, you have no money. What else do you do? Hmm…. You go to RedBox – where you get to sing your hearts out for only Rm8 for 3 full hours!! And that includes food too. Yes, not fantastic food, but at least it keeps your stomach half full. And well, you don’t get to spend rm8 singing your favourite songs at the top of your voice with your buddies for 3 hours!! So, it’s a good enough deal!! And I don’t often say this but RedBox today was a fun time though I was rather apprehensive in the beginning when I heard that it wasn’t just going to be the 4 of us. (don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I dislike the company but I’m still shy mar….)…nonetheless, it was a fabulous time today!!

After singing and shouting at the top of our voices for 3 hours, we finally had to vacate the room and we all had sore-throats anyway, so we decided to head on to Cineleisure. So, Jon, Rudi, Kat and Chuen decided to watch Superman Returns! I’ve watched it and I’m only interested to watch it again with my siblings. So, myself, Shel and Liyee went on our ways doing what girls do best – shopping!!! So, we walked over to– the biggest in South East Asia – and shopped! We weren’t there for long since Shel needed to go back home and do some house chores. So, me and Liyee followed her home. And it was great seeing Snubby again! It’s good to see Little Dog having a companion again… So we sat there and watched our all-time-favourite, Land Before Time!!! And then watched Ripley’s believe it or not?! While eating Maggi Mee!!

It’s really funny spending time with liyee and Shelb – together with wengyan. We can say and do the dumbest thing and then the next moment, come up with something serious and then go back again to doing the dumbest thing. I think it’s so cool! Haha…

So what was the serious topic today?

Shh…but it started with us talking about Chuen and Kat (and yes Jon, I still have that soft spot for Chuen!)….

Anyhow, our topic was: Is chemistry more important than Ideals?

Let me elaborate. What if you like a person whom you have quite a good chemistry with? Meaning, you enjoy each other’s company, you like the way each of you handle each other’s emotions, you enjoy certain hobbies with that person, you admire a few things about that person and you really like being with that person. But, s/he isn’t really the kind of person you imagine your partner to be like. I’m not talking about the good looks, the money, the whatever-amount-of-Cs- s/he needs to have. I’m talking about ideals that has been in your mind ever since, forever, and these are not very demanding ideals, not the kenot find kind. What about ideals such as: he must be leader-of-the-family quality ; he must be spiritually stronger and such. What about those ideals?? Are those ideals wrong in the first place? And what if those ideals are so deeply rooted in you that you might find it difficult to “compromise”?

So, give up the Ideals or the Chemistry??

Weekend filled with different emotions...

Feeling very tired now. Many things have happened within the past few days.

Friday : PC planned supper as a sending-off Joshua “party”. We then headed over to the Lee residence for football. A game we all wanted to watch so thankfully Mr. Lee opened his house for noisy people like us to watch. Hehe…it was a VERY LOOONG game! Me and Charity almost wanted died. Tension la! Stress u know!! Haha… I reached home in time to watch the second match of that night. I watched only the 1^st half since I’ve gotta wake up early the next morning.

Saturday: COPA IBA. My!! I’ve not been for COPA IBA for the past 2 years. So, it was a definite must go for me. Though none of my gang of friends were there, I definitely had to be there. Would have been my last year of being qualified to play – age wise. I was asked to substitute a few players but thought that COPA IBA ain’t about winning but about allowing the younger people to play and enjoy themselves. So, I told the under-23 team captain to allow other girls to play. The sun was blazing hot. I don’t like putting on sun-blocks, so I’m quite red – face and hands esp. ever heard of people having burned lips? Yeah, I had. My gosh. Got dry lips is okay – but when you have lips burning hot and it hurts when you touch them, oh my, that is not okay!! And I had red nose – like Rudolf the red-nose reindeer. Hah! I shall not dwell on my ugliness now. Haha... But it was fun being there, meeting people from other churches too.

The Life Chapel at Copa Iba 2006

COPA IBA - Uncle Steven Low delivered a very good message! Although I’ve always felt that a gospel message during COPA IBA is not very effective – nonetheless, Uncle Steven has never failed in giving good and short gospel messages. Our under-23 team played horribly, for various reasons. But, I guess, it was okay. Haha…Some teams we played against were very nice people but some were quite arrogant. I didn’t like that. Copa IBA was suppose to be a tool for evangelism. Sigh. However, our under-16 team played quite well. The older ones kept reminding the team members to live up to TLC’s adopted name – Tender loving care. So, play tenderly, lovingly and caringly! I believe we did! So proud of them! I wonder who won in the end.

I reached home about 3:05pm and I was making arrangements with Li Yee to go to UPM. I was suppose to be at her house by 4:15pm. But, I was too tired and with a little fried brain, I took a nap and only woke up at 4:45pm. So, I rushed to take a bath and rush over to Li Yee’s house. And because it was already so late, I called Joshua just to make sure it is okay for us to enter UPM. He forgot some stuff from home. So, I called Charity to make sure she was home so that I can go over and collect his stuff. Went to his house and got the stuffs and then both me and Li Yee headed over to UPM. So, we reached UPM at 6 plus. We gave him the things we wanted to pass to him and then when he had to go, we left too.

Left for Christopher’s 21^st birthday party! God was with us throughout our journey because we had no clue how to get to Chris’ place from UPM. So, we just hentam oni. Thank God we manage to find the place without too much trouble. So, he got dunked into the pool – well, that’s for having a pool-side party! Haha….

Reached home super tired.

Sunday: couldn’t wake up for church. By the time I reached church, was a little late already. Better still, I struggled to keep awake during sermon. Oh my! But still not too bad la….Li Yee was struggling way worse than me! hehe…

I told Li Yee the previous day to sit with me because I know I’d feel a lost – without Joshua around. I guess, I did feel what Joshua felt when I left and he sat alone during worship. When I first left, everyone told me “it feels different going to church without you”…and Joshua felt it especially. I guess, now it is my turn.

After church, we went out for breakfast and then ice-cream at McD. But we were all very tired, so we all went home after that – which isn’t usual. But, I guess, with WengYan and Shelby and Joshua absent, things are unusual.

When I got home, you should have seen the delight on my face when my phone rang and Joshua’s name appeared on the screen!!! So, I spoke to him, of course I didn’t tell him how it felt not having him around la. Hehe…hopefully he’d be around next week la! It feels so weird already.

But, the sad part is that we all should have realised this earlier. The entire gang will not have a last gathering anymore. Li Yee, Shel and Chris will be gone this Friday. And Joshua won’t be back before that. So sucky man! Argh! (And Sam scolds me and accuse me of “pampering” Josh – by going to UPM to see him!)

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